Gosh, it's been so long since I have taken the time to write, my LJ is long out of date, and I've wanted something more and connected to everything else I already have, so I figured I'd start fresh here. The only thing in preexistence here is a very old picture of Kaylee when she was little.

The picture above is a picture I snagged of TJ and I at Dale and Colleen's house for a birthday party today. It's a cute picture of the two of us and those are hard to come by :) I sure love my little guy, I can't believe he is growing up so fast. Already in pre-school, definitely full of attitude and inquiry. I'm so serious when I say that he and Faye are like twins, where one is generally the other one is and who knows what the two of them are into too.

This weekend we went out as a family, something we have not done for a long time sadly, but now that Kevin is working, and we're a little more able to breath it was so nice to just make the decision to go, though the kids really wanted to test our patience of getting out the door. So Saturday was crazy, but the kids had fun and we were able to see some friends we hadn't seen in awhile, at least I hadn't seen.

A while back I had stopped attending the Ticonderoga (our Star Trek clubs) Monthly meetings, some reasons were that we had no money to join them afterwards when they went out to eat, we didn't have money to go to the activities that required us to pay for admission or whatever it may have been, lack of child care, and comments made about Department Chiefs not doing their jobs, though the last one was directed at many, I took it personally and was happy when we were told we were all being released from our positions and that new applications would have to be submitted if we wanted them back. I passed on the re-submissions. I later became upset that Kevin was passed over for a promotion for another member that could not attend the meetings due to work, but it was his decision to remain and continue to participate. So other than a banquet that we attended at the beginning of the year, this was my first real activity out and seeing the majority of them. I was a bit disappointed at the lack of attendance of the flag ship that the party was for, and from some of the other fleet ships, but was happy to see those that were there and catch up with Erica.

Well.. I've been edgy and onry the last few days, not really able to put my finger on what had been bothering me, noticed my aunt posted on Facebook tonight, on my grandfather's page and realized it had been a year since my grandfather had passed away. I didn't make it home for the funeral, I don't know if they spread his ashes, but my grandmother sold their home and moved out to live with her son. I know when I talked to my mom it was so heartbreaking for me, to think that everything I knew of my grandparents would be gone, I didn't get to say good bye to my grandfather, now their home was being sold all the same. When I get back there to see everyone, a trip out to where his headstone is is a must, a visit to my grandmother's grave on the arsenal island needs to happen, it has been far too long since I have been home to IL. Trystin is 3 and never met the aunts and uncles he has there. One thing at a time though.

Gosh, so many things to write about, I don't even know where to begin really and this could be just one thing to the next jumping of topics. So I'm tired, my knee is giving me fits.. oh yes.. my knee.. Left knee, in an immobilizer and torn meniscus, far from fun. Tomorrow will be the third Physical Therapy session, I'll more than likely be making an appointment to see the Orthopedic doctor again, as the pain is increasingly worse, the Physical Therapy sessions only seem to aggravate it and leave me in agony for the rest of the day. So we'll see.

For now.. I'm going to hit Publish... and try to relax.